Don't Panic!

 So I feel a bit better after seeing my first programming grade. 
I got an 85!!  
It's good, but it doesn't change the fact that I hate this class.
It's dumb and annoying, like algebra. Of course, it's also  full of math too. D:
Fun times, fun!!  I have 2 more of comp science courses, then the rest will be animation. Sweet orgasmic animation courses. 
Somehow though I'll pass this class, by the skin of my danish.
My optimism is mainly supported by wine these days. XD 
It's bad, I'll take a break from it, when the semester is over. 

Speaking of animation, the only drawings I'm doing these days are in my notes. 
I think next Wed. I can squeeze some stuff in, any ideas I get, I add it to my list. 
Yes, that endless drawing list with a 100 things on it. I need to get cracking on it. 
I'm also enjoy drawing little Dr. Zoidberg faces everywhere, cause Futurama is love. 

I'm going to give DA another shot and make a new account for my other stuff.
SuperSushi will be fanart, which will one day be filled with Futurama. 
If you can't tell I'm in love with the show. I watch it everyday. It makes me feel good and just happy. 
So yeah that's my wee school/drawing updates. Later meatbags. 

 I know you apologized, but why do I still feel this way? 
 I haven't felt this low in forever. 

 My first blog for ATEC 3325, posting it here for future reference. 

In Houston, driving on the freeway between the Beltway 8 and the 610 loop. There are tons of billboard ads, giant balloon animals on top of car dealerships, and huge lit up signs. The ads range from what church to go to, to the city zoo. But that's expected in a big city, Houston has advertising down to a tee. Even though it might not be in comparison with Times Square, which has a higher clutter rate, probably higher than anywhere in the world. Houston's clutter rate is just as effective. I always know what the latest exhibition is at the museum or what bookstore just opened, by looking up. Your always informed of what's going on in the city. After I read this chapter on advertising and watching the documentary. I thought about my hometown and my own tv habits. Actually when I moved to Dallas that was one of the things I noticed, where did all the signs go?

Growing up in the 4th largest city and the fabulous decade of the 90's, I would say that I am pretty much immune to advertisements. I think that advertising in the 90's might've been a little less extreme, were mostly you would see ads on the tv, radio, or the newspaper. I remember as a kid sitting in front of the tv, on saturday mornings watching cartoons. Waiting for the commercials and the bright vivid colors of cartoon characters trying to sell me the latest sugared cereal. It worked every time. That's one thing that advertising did for me, my toy box exploded with happy meal toys. True story. Today advertising doesn't really do much for me, I guess I can see the exaggeration of what they're trying to sell me. I get bored easily now when I watch tv, it could be the endless commercials. Even some websites I go to are getting pop-up advertisments, like livejournal. It's my other blog, but now when I log on a Reese's commercial comes up. I get it, they are delicious.

Since then advertising has had a major boom, ads are everywhere, there's no escape. I do think technology has had a major influence on the industry, it's right at your fingertips too. Just turn on your iphone or go online and there is an advertisement for anything. Even Youtube and Hulu are having ads put on the their websites, because to get noticed you have to get a lot of attention for your product. I don't see the advertising industry as a bad thing, but now that there is so much of it. How do you know were the truth comes in? Or what is reliable? I guess I'm 50/50 about the whole thing, it might even get to the point where advertisements show up in your dreams, like in the cartoon Futurama.

 Will there be a day when I learn to wear the right size pants??







Never. 

 Bah, today was pretty awesome, as in class was cancelled and I laid around and did nothing. 
Tomorrow I'll be more productive in cleaning house and that thing called hw. The weather is suppose to be freezing rain and a high of 37, yeah I'm staying in. It's thundering now, it's pretty cool makes me want to curl in a ball and sleep. *snore* 
I'm pretty sure I have enough food too, I think. I know I do have enough goldfish for the rest of the semester. :D
ugh Im going to go snore now. 

 Dammit this is going to be harder than I thought.
I will pass this programming class, I WILL DO IT!!! 
If that dork JIllian can do it, so can I. Only I'll have a six pack to back me up!!! 

 Alright so I've decided that every other friday will be my adventure day around Dallas. 
Cause I think it would be cool and why the heck not? 


Anyway on to my friday adventure, the Dallas Galleria. It wasn't that hard to get to, maybe 16 minutes away. Their freeways are really fun to drive on, barely any traffic jams. Always a plus. Parking though was kinda tough, the garage was tucked away in this secret spot. The galleria is actually smaller than ours, I walked the whole thing. Well I stayed at the top level, but it was easy to see everything. Pretty much the same stores nothing new, I went to the Hot Topic. Cause I wanted to know if they had any EEnE shirts, they didn't, but they had Johnny Bravo. Might get it later. I also need to get some new nose jewelry, this sparkly thing is driving me nuts. That it was cool at first but no. 

I also was bothered by a guy at a kiosk, he wasn't hitting on me. But was more like pumping me for info, asked to many questions. Like where do you live?, Age?, things of that nature. He also had a fascination with my shoes and wanted to trade. YEAH FREAK! So I told him that Im gay, I live in a house with illegals, and these shoes were made by sweatshop kids. Their tiny hands make the best stitches. (I apologize to all sweatshop kids)  Oh and I smoke marijuana at least twice a day, cause he thought I was high. (j/k on the maryjane) 

So yeah that was my adventure, lessons learned here watch out for kiosk people. They are weird. 
Next Adventure: ART STORE!!! 

 So I had a breakdown last night, Idk why. 
I usually have them a few times a year. 
I get really depressed when there isn't a reason to be and I think death is the answer. 
 Depression runs in the family, I got all the awesome stuff. I do need to handle it better, its not that bad here. 
I do like it and I have met some cool people. I'm just freaking out over nothing, I guess its that beginning of the semester jitters. 
*slaps self* Ok I'm good. 
Even though I'm not that much into it anymore, there is an anime club tomorrow. Like from 5-9, which is kinda long, so I think I'll go to it, for a little while. I did go to the Bingo night which was fun, and I didn't win. But whatever, the top prize was a Snuggie. ew. So yeah what I need to do is just socialize, I don't do much of it on tuesdays cause Im half asleep walking to class.  I'm totally going to grow some confidence balls at the end of the semester. 

I'm also going to try and see about internships. And a weekend job, cause it would be very nice. 

Back in the day of the 9th grade, I came up with this name. 

Deathscythe Hell Custom, Kodama, 7.

Yeah what a nerd I am. If you know what any of that comes from, you win a cookie. 

WOOO!!! 
So this spring semester is going to be wild and crazy. Mostly studying and more studying, but that's what its all about. Well unless J comes then that's another story. I was kinda depressed at first, but it will be ok just take a day at a time. People are kinda weird here, but then I'm pretty weird too. Anyway class list: 

ATEC 3325 - Intro to Comp Mediated Communication
MW 12:30-1:45

ATEC 2382 - Comp Imaging 
M 4-6:45

CS 1336 - Programming Fundamentals 
TTH 10 - 11:15

CS 1136 - Comp Sci Lab 
T 2:30-4:20 

I love my Monday classes, I think they will go really well. Comp Imaging will help with my non-existent photoshop skills. The proffs on those days are pretty cool too. Tuesday classes I can see as being a pain, but I'll just do what I did for algebra. WORK MY ASS OFF! yep. I have to get a C+ or higher (duh) in order to move to the next class. What does this have to with storyboarding?? Idk either.

I'm getting used to things up here and noticed some things about myself. I think I can really live on my own and Im glad I did take the chance. I mean I do miss J and the others a lot but I gotta do this. Even if something happened, like I failed, I'm not moving back to Houston. Cause nothing is really set in stone but if the chance does come you better f^&^ing take it.   I also keep craving cigarettes or at least enjoy the smell of them. But that's J's doing. Totally. 

Now I need to go and put that dam printer together. 

This song is appropriate for the new year!
It makes me feel dirty inside.
But then what doesn't?

 Alright, last post of '09, and the decade. :D

This year went actually ok, got out of SJ, accepted to UTD. My drawing style took a few more baby steps, I don't think its enough. But it never is, ever. That's ok cause I have at least the rest of my life to improve. Totally. 

I served in my friends wedding, which is probably the coolest moment ever. And now she going to have a baby, I'm a aunt!! WOO!

I went to a bunch of museums, visited the aquarium, also the beach. I love the beach, and I don't know why. Maybe cause I could look out over the ocean and be lost in my own thoughts. (so deep)  

I think I have changed a lot over the years as well. I'm a little more open about stuff, and I don't want to hate. Cause that gets you no where, just makes you more angry, then you can't focus on what's really important. So yeah I've dropped hate, it cramps my style anyway. I'll work on other things of my personality later. 

Anyway, I don't know what's going down tonight, maybe something fun. Right now I need food though. 

P.S. - I don't make resolutions, cause nothing is set in stone. Unless I put it there....

Man, I'm seriously getting anxious about the move. Questions running through my mind, will I pass/fail?, other silly things. Will I change for the better? Can I survive on my own? How will I do in this long-distance relationship???( I really like the person Im with so I think I'll be ok.) OMG BAGEL BREATHE!! I might start smoking....j/k.
Actually Im surprised no one in my family is a heavy smoker, cause it just seems we would be. Or alcoholics. 
They are also driving me crazy and their paranoia is rubbing off of me. So, when Im up there I can relax, clear my head, get my degree, make toast all day. :D

 I got a new toaster, im in love with it.  I'm also in love with my new teacups, new appliances just rock. 
  

psh I need to drink something and relax.
I'm getting to paranoid and anxious.
But I always get this way when x-mas day comes, cause of obvious family drama.
Last year my mom kicked out my gpa cause him and my dad got in a fight.
Yeah not fun. I feel like I'm more miserable around them and I'm glad I'll have the chance to get away from them. (I better pass!)
Cause I see them and I don't want to be anything like them.

Whew! I had to get that off my chest.

In other news, I think my drawing skills have improved a bit this year.
I'm very happy about it.
I need to keep it up and I will.
Go me!!

Jules from Pulp Fiction:

There's a passage I got memorized. Ezekiel 25:17. The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he who, in the name of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of the darkness. For he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know I am the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon you. I been sayin' that shit for years. And if you ever heard it, it meant your ass. I never really questioned what it meant. I thought it was just a cold-blooded thing to say to a motherfucker before you popped a cap in his ass. But I saw some shit this mornin' made me think twice. Now I'm thinkin': it could mean you're the evil man. And I'm the righteous man. And Mr. 9mm here, he's the shepherd protecting my righteous ass in the valley of darkness. Or it could be you're the righteous man and I'm the shepherd and it's the world that's evil and selfish. I'd like that. But that shit ain't the truth. The truth is you're the weak. And I'm the tyranny of evil men. But I'm tryin', Ringo. I'm tryin' real hard to be a shepherd.

It's freezing in this hotel room, its something you need to know. Just in case I freeze to death.

Yipee!!!!!1111
I get my braces off Dec.1!!!!!!
Chicken Con FTW.

I would eat sushi for the rest of my life.
Tell my friends and family that I love them and everything.
Ask my best friend to marry me, cause why not?
And donate all of my money to a kidney foundation. :D

Ok I need to grow some balls, immediately.
But on another note, my weekend went well.
I visited a academic adviser at UTD, and I got my degree plan.
It looks like I might have to take computer science, which I'm already not looking forward to.
SO I might see if I can take it at San Jac this winter mini, if not I'll tough it out up there.
It's a lower level major requirement, so I can't squeeze my way out of it.
I also got lost on the campus, and found a map to help me out. But the weather was really nice and cold. Now I'm back in the 3rd level of hell. YAY!!!
Today I need to print out their catalog and other things. I might have to send an email to the adviser. I'm gonna drive her crazy with questions. :D
Go me.